Waiting on my world to change

When I realize that I don't need anybody, I can't tell if it's disturbing or comforting. Maybe it's both. When I feel alone, I feel really alone. Almost so alone, that I wonder if I should just go for it and live my life with no expectations from others. I feel like maybe I should just skip all the hoping to wind up happy with someone, and not risk the heartache. At the same time that thought is too lonely to finish. I'm just feeling lost and I want someone to find me and change that.